My First Failure

I'd never known that my first failure happened in the end of 2016.
And the karma still happens :)

Now, it has almost been 2 years since the conflict. But I can still feel the painful, is that a process of moving on? I wish YES.

Life must go on, people said. Do they know that it is so hard to bring these scars to the new life?
I know that I was wrong, but this kind of feeling is not worthy to be the consequences. I want to do anything to heal this. I swear.

So what is the karma?
It is very hard to know that you have many differences with your new man that cannot be solved so far. And I've never realized it before.
Then a little sound in my heart always whispers that he is not the one. Should I believe?

Another karma happens on every morning, I hate to wake up. It is because my dream is more beautiful than the reality. I try to go back and sleep. I do not want to go anywhere and face anything. I wish this ends soon. How to stop it? I really do not know.

So I change the routine, make some plans, never stop thinking in order to forget the pain. I wish a time machine comes to me as a gift then I can change the past better. But it would not happend.

Will the question be answered soon? Will this pain be healed soon? Does my heart whisper the truth?